It has been way too long since I posted anything. At first it was because life got a little crazy with my getting a promotion at work (yay!), the girls graduating (another yay!), and everything that went into all of that. But then my life fell apart, and that is really why I haven’t posted.
I think letting the bad get in the way of my writing has not been good for me. I was really enjoying writing, and it made me happy. I enjoyed reading the postings of everyone I followed, which also made me happy. But in the long months since I’ve not posted, I also haven’t read the blogs I follow. I intend for all of this to stop today.
At the beginning of summer my body gave up, the intense pain started, and I’ve pretty much been stuck in a recliner. I started out stuck in bed or on the air mattress Husband put up in the living room, so upgrading to the recliner was actually great. With the help of a cane I can walk a little, and stand a little, and I can sit in a chair a little. I can’t do any of these activities a lot, which is restrictive. I haven’t been to work since this started, but I have watched almost the entire 9 seasons of The Walton’s!
I’ve had 7 procedures, and I was so very hopeful after the 7th, which happened 2 weeks ago. But, I don’t think it worked (although I’m supposed to give it a full month to take effect), because my pain spread a little, and I am having more problems walking than I was. So now I have to get all of my records together and make appointments with surgeons. I’ve said in the past that there was no way I would consider surgery unless I was to the point where I couldn’t walk and I was in constant pain…which is where I am, so now I have to hope I am a surgical candidate.
Pain is so wearing. I’ve lived with constant but manageable pain for 6 years, but what I am going through now beats all of that. I’m on so many medications to help the pain I had to set alarms for when I’m supposed to take them, and then remember what I’m supposed to take when the alarm goes off. I use 3 different over-the-counter creams when I go to bed to try and numb the pain so I can fall asleep. I rotate them so I have a better chance of them not losing their effectiveness over time by my skin getting used to them. Even with all of this I constantly hurt, and hurt fairly high on the pain scale…being at a 6 is a good day for me.
I am not doing too bad staying cheerful and optimistic, although Husband might say differently. I think blogging again, and reading other bloggers will definitely improve my days, especially since I’m almost out of Walton’s episodes to watch. I really do have a lot of wonderful people in my life, and good things happening. I can’t let the pain diminish that, and more importantly, I won’t. So, I’m looking forward to reconnecting to blogging and bloggers, and upping the good over the not good in my life. Happy Monday!